Here and Gone (Haylen Beck)


Here and Gone is a gripping, wonderfully tense suspense thriller about a mother’s desperate fight to recover her stolen children from corrupt authorities.

It begins with a woman fleeing through Arizona with her kids in tow, trying to escape an abusive marriage. When she’s pulled over by an unsettling local sheriff, things soon go awry and she is taken into custody. Only when she gets to the station, her kids are gone. And then the cops start saying they never saw any kids with her, that if they’re gone than she must have done something with them…

Meanwhile, halfway across the country a man hears the frenzied news reports about the missing kids, which are eerily similar to events in his own past. As the clock ticks down on the search for the lost children, he too is drawn into the desperate fight for their return. 

Here and Gone would be the perfect book to transition to a Lifetime movie. And when I say that I mean, a Lifetime movie that I would actually watch. Not one of those over dramatic and drawn out shows.

First I wanted to point out that I haven’t read a male author in a very, very long time and I was very indulged and impressed with Haylen Beck’s writing in Here and Gone. Mainly because I got so much anxiety when I read this book. As a mother. And a wife. And omg SO MUCH ANXIETY!


BUT this was mainly because we as readers are so blind sided and out of the loop with everything but so are the main characters, they know nothing and we know nothing. We are right there with them wondering and straight freaking the hell out.


Here and Gone was a quick story with a compelling story line about so much more than what you think you’re biting off. This book is every parents worse nightmare. And as much as I loved it, I’m so glad I’m done with it.


Tenderness (Robert Cormier)


Eighteen-year-old Eric has just been released from juvenile detention for murdering his parents. Now he’s looking for tenderness–tenderness he finds in killing girls. Fifteen-year-old Lori has run away from home again. Emotionally naive and sexually precocious, she is also looking for tenderness–tenderness that she finds in Eric. Will Lori and Eric be each other’s salvation or destruction? 

Basically, I only finished this book because it was so much shorter than most. Had it been longer, I would have DNF it.


I didn’t one star this because of the topic, I’m a big girl. I one started it because it was b o r i n g. Plain and simple.

Lori is awful. She’s dumb and clueless and that’s all I can tell you without spoilers. And Eric is the knock-off junior high version of Joe from YOU.

I didn’t even like the writing.


*sigh* Yet another YA that I didn’t like.

The Roanoke Girls (Amy Engel)

IMG_0818After her mother’s suicide, fifteen year-old Lane Roanoke came to live with her grandparents and fireball cousin, Allegra, on their vast estate in rural Kansas. Lane knew little of her mother’s mysterious family, but she quickly embraced life as one of the rich and beautiful Roanoke girls. But when she discovered the dark truth at the heart of the family, she ran fast and far away.

Eleven years later, Lane is adrift in Los Angeles when her grandfather calls to tell her Allegra has gone missing. Did she run too? Or something worse? Unable to resist his pleas, Lane returns to help search, and to ease her guilt at having left Allegra behind. Her homecoming may mean a second chance with the boyfriend whose heart she broke that long ago summer. But it also means facing the devastating secret that made her flee, one she may not be strong enough to run from again.

As it weaves between Lane’s first Roanoke summer and her return, The Roanoke Girls shocks and tantalizes, twisting its way through revelation after mesmerizing revelation, exploring the secrets families keep and the fierce and terrible love that both binds them together and rips them apart. 

B O O K!

And let me just tell you why right now. You don’t have to pull up a seat, it won’t take long.


The author’s writing in The Roanoke Girls was just as powerful as the subject matter the book tackled. And hot damn is it a trigger-filled story. Just…absolutely crazy. That’s the only head of warning you get from me.

“Roanoke girls never last long around here. In the end, we either run or die.”

But like I said, the author’s writing and over all the construction and lay out of the entire plot was incredible. Trust it. Embrace it. It will pull you in so far you don’t even see it coming. The alternating past and present scenes did this book so well! It does suck because I did guess the plot twist but that still didn’t steer me away from the book. Not. At. All.


Basically my stomach churned, my anxiety was sky high, I felt dirty and I cringed so many damn times.


People will judge me for liking this one. I’ll hear about it. And I can’t wait.


The Silent Wife (A. S. A. Harrison)


A chilling psychological thriller about a marriage, a way of life, and how far one woman will go to keep what is rightfully hers.

Jodi and Todd are at a bad place in their marriage. Much is at stake, including the affluent life they lead in their beautiful waterfront condo in Chicago, as she, the killer, and he, the victim, rush haplessly toward the main event. He is a committed cheater. She lives and breathes denial. He exists in dual worlds. She likes to settle scores. He decides to play for keeps. She has nothing left to lose. Told in alternating voices, The Silent Wife is about a marriage in the throes of dissolution, a couple headed for catastrophe, concessions that can’t be made, and promises that won’t be kept. Expertly plotted and reminiscent of Gone Girl and These Things Hidden, The Silent Wife ensnares the reader from page one and does not let go.

Y a w n.

This book was excruciating. I should have known that from the minute I seen the caption “So much better than Gone Girl!!” on the back of the book *face palm*. Gone Girl wasn’t good, I should have known from that point on. Authors, when you have people blurb your book, and they put anything relevant to Gone Girl on the cover, I won’t read it. I’ve learned my lesson. Please stop doing it!


My biggest complaint with this book was I wanted to know how the story ends, I knew it just HAD to be good but then I got to the end and was left with a blank stare on my face. Really? That’s the ending you’re giving me? Where is the twist? The OMG factor? The “how did that happen!?!” moment? Not to mention I was already irked off enough because this book is marketed as “thriller” and “suspense” but there was none of that. It was a basic book. With a basic ending.


Another thing I didn’t like was the random scenes thrown in throughout the entire book. Scenes that played no relevance to the plot. None at all. I got to the end and said “okay, so what was the point with blah blah blah?” Spoiler alert: THERE WAS NO POINT.


When you read the blurb, you’re expecting a chilling and high suspense novel but the story itself is not that. The story was boring. Point blank. No climax, no plot, no story line, boring characters, dull. The title? How is Jodi a silent wife? She very much was vocal and present, I don’t get it. I’m still lost. How do you like a book with not one but two unlikeable characters? I have no idea.

A Different Blue (Amy Harmon)


Blue Echohawk doesn’t know who she is. She doesn’t know her real name or when she was born. Abandoned at two and raised by a drifter, she didn’t attend school until she was ten years old. At nineteen, when most kids her age are attending college or moving on with life, she is just a senior in high school. With no mother, no father, no faith, and no future, Blue Echohawk is a difficult student, to say the least. Tough, hard and overtly sexy, she is the complete opposite of the young British teacher who decides he is up for the challenge, and takes the troublemaker under his wing.

This is the story of a nobody who becomes somebody. It is the story of an unlikely friendship, where hope fosters healing and redemption becomes love. But falling in love can be hard when you don’t know who you are. Falling in love with someone who knows exactly who they are and exactly why they can’t love you back might be impossible.

Once upon a time, I picked up A Different Blue, the last of Amy’s books that I hadn’t read yet and surprise, surprise…adored it. Gobbled it up.

Amy Harmon doesn’t write bad books, y’all. I bet she never does either. And the best thing about her books is they’re all so diverse and the messages they all provide is so heartwarming.


My most favorite thing about Amy is she doesn’t have to have a book chalk full of romance and smut. Better put as: S E X. Amy doesn’t need that detail strung out chapter after chapter. She diligently writes her stories with beautiful words that in turn evokes beautiful feelings. That, to me, is a million times better than full blown romance and sex scene after sex scene.


The characters in A Different Blue were probably my favorite ones from Amy Harmon to date. Wilson and Blue form such a dynamic bond from the start that I instantly latched onto. And Blue herself was a strong and dominate character. A woman who was growing but wasn’t afraid of the growth she would undergo.

So, for those who are searching and for those who want to be found or for those who are trying to understand…read this book. Read. This. Book.

The Unrequited (Saffron A Kent)


Layla Robinson is not crazy. She is suffering from unrequited love. But it’s time to move on. No more stalking, no more obsessive calling.

What she needs is a distraction. The blue-eyed guy she keeps seeing around campus could be a great one—only he is the new poetry professor—the married poetry professor.

Thomas Abrams is a stereotypical artist—rude, arrogant, and broody—but his glares and taunts don’t scare Layla. She might be bad at poetry, but she is good at reading between the lines. Beneath his prickly façade, Thomas is lonely, and Layla wants to know why. Obsessively.

Sometimes you do get what you want. Sometimes you end up in the storage room of a bar with your professor and you kiss him. Sometimes he kisses you back like the world is ending and he will never get to kiss you again. He kisses you until you forget the years of unrequited love; you forget all the rules, and you dare to reach for something that is not yours.

A lot of things drive me to read books like this. But the biggest thing with The Unrequited was the authors writing. It was not only neat it was mesmerizing. I couldn’t look away or stop reading it. I had to mentally tell myself to put it down even though it only took me a day to read this book.

I like tropes like this book because they push my anxiety. They make me tense and breathe hard. But it also makes want more. That’s the kind of things I’m looking for when I read a book. I want that WANT and The Unrequited gave me that and so much more.


Layla and Thomas are not only Unrequited lovers but they’re two very similar people who are looking for the same thing but have many complications along the way. MANY. But hot damn, they’re so worth it.

I really enjoyed this book, it wholly consumed my day and I’m in no way complaining. Four gold crazy stars for you, Layla girl!