But I Love Him (Amanda Grace)


Sometimes at night, I wake up and stare at the heart for hours. I think of how I collected each piece from the beach, how I glued it all together into one big sculpture. I wonder if Connor realizes what it means, that he’ll always have a piece of me no matter what happens. Each piece of glass is another piece of myself that I gave to him.

It’s too bad I didn’t keep any pieces for myself.

At the beginning of senior year, Ann was a smiling, straight-A student and track star with friends and a future. Then she met a haunted young man named Connor. Only she can heal his emotional scars; only he could make her feel so loved – and needed. Ann can’t recall the pivotal moment it all changed, when she surrendered everything to be with him, but by graduation, her life has become a dangerous high wire act. Just one mistake could trigger Connor’s rage, a senseless storm of cruel words and violence damaging everything – and everyone – in its path.

This evocative slideshow of flashbacks reveals a heartbreaking story of love gone terribly wrong.

Amanda Grace is a literary GENIUS.

The structure of But I Love him is written backwards. Yep, backwards. Completely. You get the ending first and then you go all the way up to the first day and to me, that is spectacular. I liked it because if you start at the beginning, you almost always know how it’s going to end. So, what better way to start at the end and see how it all began?

“It happened in pieces, tiny little turning points. I’ll never figure out when it all turned, because it wasn’t a single moment.”

As you guys know, I enjoy domestic violence books. I’ve been there. I know it. A lot of people have. And I have read some books that just slaughter it. It’s not accurate nor realistic. But then I stumble across books like this one and it displays it perfectly.


I didn’t like the ending though. It was too open for me. Sometimes that works but in this case, it didn’t work for me. I felt empty and curious and I just don’t like that feeling at the end of some of the books I read.

This is a very good YA novel. One that I would allow a 12-13 year old read. It’s a very realistic book that delves into a very real topic and depicts the chain of events in a superb way. Whether you’re an Ann or you’re a Connor I feel as if you’ll really benefit from this book. And if not, you’ll at least enjoy it.



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