If He Had Been With Me (Laura Nowlin)


If he had been with me everything would have been different…

I wasn’t with Finn on that August night. But I should’ve been. It was raining, of course. And he and Sylvie were arguing as he drove down the slick road. No one ever says what they were arguing about. Other people think it’s not important. They do not know there is another story. The story that lurks between the facts. What they do not know—the cause of the argument—is crucial.

So let me tell you…

I think I could could have really loved this book, but some of the things just didn’t sit right with me. A few of the characters actions, the ending, then inconsistencies just to name a few.


If He Had Been With Me was a story full of what ifs and regrets and unfinished business. It’s terribly sad. It’s a SAD book. The tone is sad, it’s all just sad. The title gives you an idea of what happens, but while you’re reading the story so much is going on that you completely forget about that. And then you’re just sad again.

The story was enjoyable, the characters were decent, but things didn’t start picking up for me until about 70%. The beginning of the book is terribly slow.


And then the ending happened. I didn’t like it. All of that reading for THAT. The author took the easy way out to end this book and then threw the reader a bone afterwards and practically said “there, take that and be happy with what you got because that’s it.”

My favorite part about the whole book was the authors writing. For a YA I quite enjoyed it and I typically don’t say that. It flowed very easily and it was nice to be in Autumn’s head to see what was going on in her life. Finny’s POV would have been MUCH appreciated though. Maybe some of my unanswered questions would have gotten answers.


There is just a lot of things going on to take in while reading this book. There are so many things going on with so many characters and it’s not very consistent. It’s almost sloppy. The reader is left out of many important things which in turn leaves me with a lot of unanswered questions. And not the good kinds. Nonetheless it was an emotional read that I’m glad that I finished.


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